Saturday, May 1, 2010

An evening with friends and food

I have often failed to consider the social aspect of health when trying to figure out how to feel my best.  I find it much easier to focus on food, nutrients, exercise, etc.  I tend to be more of an introvert and feel most comfortable alone or with small groups, so socializing is something that takes effort.  However, I've noticed that the times where I feel the best are when I have felt a connection with other people.  This isn't always the case, often social situations can come with a lot of anxiety too.  This is an area of my life that needs some improvement, so that I can feel more at ease with people and to reap the benefits that comes from human connection.

Today I went out to eat with some friends and had some good food.  I ended up deciding to eat whatever I wanted, including dessert.  Eating out has always been a very important thing to me, and it is usually the place where I have trouble balancing my diet.  When I reduce my consumption of unhealthy foods, it is the thought of not being able to eat out that I stress about.  The thought of never being able to enjoy certain foods with friends, etc.  I've yet to find a proper balance where I'm able to eat these foods but then go back to eating properly right after.  For some reason I think there are only two options, either being extremely strict or having a free-for-all.  This is a common belief that causes me a lot of difficulty in different aspects of my life.

But today was good.  Going out, seeing people I have not seen in a while, and enjoying good food  I don't see how such an evening can be seen as a bad thing even if what I ate wasn't perfect.  Maybe it really is possible for me to have some sort of balance that I'm at peace with.  This is what my original goal was, to find a balance where I am taking care of my self and not feeling deprived.

Friendship is an essential component of health, and I hope give it the attention that it deserves.


  1. I found your blog from your comment on My Years Without Sugar. I don't know how to tell you this, but you are a male version...of me. I'm 25, I'm not overweight (yet), and your last three posts have been EXACTLY, almost word-for-word what I've been going through, how I feel, how I think. I don't think you would believe me unless I poto copy my journal which is directly to the left of me <---.

    I'm just finishing a final finale (did I spell that right?) weekend of all-out mogging. What happend to me was I got cocky the weekend of February 5th after approx. 5 months of weighing between 110-113 lbs. (I'm 5'4.5") WHILE eating "what I want," aka junk. I broke up with my boyfriend and kinda wanted to celebrate. I thought I could eat out 3x in 1 weekend.

    I gained 3 or 4 lbs & haven't been the same since.

    I can be good for anywhere from five days (the world refers to this as the work week) to I think my best was around two consecutive weeks. Got back down to 112.6 in Feb or March & then binged the rest of a weekend. Because I'm a pandajerk to myself like that.

    I've gained approx 10 lbs in 3 months (120 - 123 lbs). To normal people this wouldn't be a big deal... It's a big deal to me. I'm a very logical person & I feel like I've lost control.

    So this weekend I ate McDonald's, enough pop to kill a small horse, leftovers from a chain restaurant, Texas Toast, & 6 Reeses PB Cups today. Who eats SIX Reeses PB Cups?! & why'd I do this? Because I've decided tomorrow is my last Day 1. This is it Brian.

    Today I called my library and ordered 3 food addiction/12 step program books and I'm not looking back. I also discovered "Misery Addiction" or "Self-Sabotage Addiction" today. I think you & I may be in the same boat on that one.

    I hope you're not creeped out by all this writing I'm doing. I've never read your post before & wish that you had an email address up so the whole world doesn't have to see this.

    You (& your readers) are the only one in the whole world who knows that tomorrow is my Day 1.


    p.s. & to top it off you have Radiant Recovery in your links...which is a site I also just discovered..sigh.

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